Shit Happens

I had the most incredible experience recently. I have been pretty transparent in saying that these past two and a half years have been hard. They have been hard for me and they have been hard for my family, friends, colleagues and clients. I upped my self care game this past year and really started looking at what mattered in my life and what actually energized me and what depleted me. I decided to guard my energy in a way I never have before. As a therapist and healer it is easy to keep giving until you realize you are running on empty.

I couldn’t recognize what was going on until friends used brutal honesty to say you need to take care of yourself, you are burning out. The energy healing of reiki gave me my life back and helped me rebalance and become even better at what I do. I found a calm, a clarity that was positively unprecedented. After months of inner work, I emerged refreshed, refocused and ready to reclaim my space as a healing professional. I am also proud to say that I finished my Level 1, Reiki and am soon to finish Level 2. My reiki training was really for me but it definitely adds a different lense to my therapeutic approach.

One of my first next steps was to get a few photos done and update my website a bit. I absolutely love the energy of Jen from Lady Luck Photography and feel so much gratitude for her creativity, kindness and just all out wonderful vibe. She is a passionate mental health advocate and she came into my life at a perfect time. During my photoshoot, Jen’s bird, Lucky was hanging out in her studio and as I posed against the fabulous exposed brick wall I felt something. Lucky had claimed my head as his own landing strip and sat perched on top of it. He just brought so much joy and whimsy to the moment it was epic. The outcome of the shoot surpassed my expectations and Lucky reminded me the thing I have learned over these years and that is “shit happens” and we have to be ready to roll with the unexpected.

Over the next little while I will be sharing some new things and am happy to say that my practice is shifting to more wellbeing and mindset coaching. I will still be the same therapist and social worker that some of you have worked with in the past but different. Think of me as Kimberley 2.0, the founder of Kaleidoscope Wellness Niagara with a fresh perspective and new insights on what it means to live life in alignment.


Readers’ Choice Awards

All I can say is Wow! To win an award in 3 categories is just incredible. I started as a young social work years ago and wondered if I could ever make a difference in people’s lives…..if I could ever be good enough. I remember the first time I read Brene Brown and heard her talk about women and “imposter syndrome” and it blew me away. I realized that no matter how smart, beautiful or successful you are, so many women experience this.

I wear my vulnerability now like battle scars and I am proud of who I have become as the years have passed. Moments like this are to be shared with all of the people who have entered my office and my life. I have one of the most amazing jobs in the world as I get to be part of your journeys even if just for a moment or perhaps a little longer as life throws some unexpected twists and turns.

Thank you to those who voted and thank you for trusting me. For those of you who might be reading this but we haven’t met yet, please make that call or send that message. I look forward to meeting you.

Kindest Regards

Kimberley


Taking a Leap

I have made a career centered around mental health and wellness. This week I was invited to join Kevin Frankish of The Happy Molecule and talk about one of my favourite things, happiness. The funny thing is I was excited and terrified all at the same time. It was so fantastic to be asked but like most of us I have been experiencing a bit of CoVid burnout and feeling a bit low to say the least. I was worried I might not have the energy to do it well.

I was having a Brene Brown moment of feeling vulnerable and worried what others might think. What if I couldn’t give the audience what they needed? What if they figure out I am human and experiencing a pandemic just like them? Here is the thing though, I read some of Kevin’s listeners comments online and loved the energy coming from them. I reviewed some of my old blog posts and realized that I have been telling others for years to step outside their comfort zone.  Take a leap, feel the fear and do it anyway. I suspect the universe was giving me a bit of a kick in the butt. Honestly I love when that happens! It was trying to tell me in order to help me I needed to connect with others. Our own growth and mental health is not created in a silo. We build it through our connections with others. Each time we help someone, listen to them or just do a random act of kindness we increase our own positivity.

The hour went by really fast and there was so much to talk about. It surprised me that we filled the time and there was still so much more to share. There were a few comments about feeling discouraged of that it was an impossible task. You are right, a few ideas and 60 minutes isn’t going to change our world but it is a start. Even if you don’t have the energy to do anything about it today, you have learned something and it will be there in your brain for later.

Taking charge of our happiness isn’t about judging or having unrealistic expectations , it is an intentional commitment to yourself. It is showing up in our life and valuing us even when we aren’t okay. Okay, actually especially when we aren’t okay. Oh and here is another thing Covid has taught us. Feelings of sorrow, fury and joy can co-exist in us at the same time. You can be positively pissed off at the world and still be kind. Who knew?! I love that!

We will still be sad, angry, anxious and maybe even feel despair but in amongst this messiness we can create small moments of joy. It is not about negating or avoiding the other feelings but making room for all of it. 

It isn’t without work but it isn’t meant to be overwhelming and we don’t need to do it alone. When we make a choice to find the small things and make connections we are usually helping someone else too without even realizing it.

One small thing each day. There are days where it might be having a shower and getting dressed and just showing up in your life and other days it might be bigger like a chat with a friend and finding laughter for the first time in awhile.  Maybe sending a card that you know will brighten someone else’s day. Nothing is too small, there is no measuring stick other than, did it feel good? 

I am so grateful I chose me on Sunday and said yes! This year has been hard and I miss people actually a lot. An hour with humans willing to invest in their mental health found me recharged and refocused. I am grateful for the lessons this year has taught me and the realization that we are never too old to grow!

I am proud of what I put out there.  For an hour I wasn’t alone in lockdown but with a group of people who also need to connect with people. How beautiful is that?! 

So my message is and always will be, today Be You, Love You, Choose You, You Are So Worth It! 


How are you?

So I suppose this might seem like an odd post for a therapist but maybe it tells you a little bit about my sense of humour. We have spent the past 11 months feeling like this on a number of days. It hasn’t happened and although most of us are a little worse for wear the world is still here and so are we. This does not negate the trauma we have experienced globally. Yes, I call it trauma because we have been living in a prolonged state of crisis. It’s been a long journey but it is time to check in. How are you? Let’s not lie about it and say “fine”. It think we need to check in with each other and share how we are really doing. It’s time to move forward and reconnect with those you still want in your life. A phone call, a Zoom chat or a parking lot physically distant cup of tea. Do what works but be real and let people know you are not okay. I love when people are clear and tell me what they need. We can’t always fix things but we can be present. We can bake that cake, pick up those groceries or just listen. I know you have heard this before but it is okay to not be okay! If you are okay then fantastic, help someone else if you have the energy to give.

This is the year of the big reset, we got knocked down and it is time to put our plan in place and do the work we want to do or let go of what we don’t need. Be kind to yourself and just lean in. You’ve got this! Oh and if you don’t, well find a good counsellor and prioritize your mental wellness because it is so important.


The Art of Not Buying Stuff

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The art of not buying stuff is a topic of interest to many these days. Clever marketing told us that we needed stuff and if we bought stuff our lives would be better and more fulfilled. The funny thing is that we have a population of people with too much stuff and higher levels of anxiety. I am going to go out on a limb here and say that it didn’t seem to work well. Maybe the answer really wasn’t in our material gains.  If Covid-19 has taught us anything, it is that all the stuff in the world doesn’t help in a pandemic, unless it is toilet paper.

Where to start?

Start small, maybe the kitchen drawer that is filled with gadgets. Organize them into groups and get rid of duplicates. Once you get started, keep going.  Pick another drawer until you feel lighter and a bit more free. Let go of the underwear with holes in it and the purse with the broken strap, you are never going to use it again.  Be honest with yourself.

Go paperless

I will admit that I am a bit of a magazine hoarder. I love to read and it is exciting to me every time I sit down to a glossy new cooking or travel magazine. The problem is that they never leave the house once I read it. So, my solution is to have become a digital hoarder. I have tried an online magazine subscription service and have created a more organized Pinterest for all the recipes I want to try.  My ipad is full but my bedroom floor is clearing up.

One in, two out

Every time you bring something new into your home, think about rehoming two things.  They don’t necessarily have to be the same things but it is about clearing space literally and figuratively. New lamp? Take a look around the room for knick knacks that don’t really go with the new lamp.  Keep a box at hand to put things in for donation and when it gets full drop it off.

Invest in Experiences

If we look back on our lives, we remember the late night drives for ice cream, impromptu Covidly distant dinners with friends or family campfires.  We don’t really remember the material things we were given unless it was a puppy or a pony and then well you were actually given an experience too!

Start with your children now and they will thank you later. It will help them to learn how to recharge, how to have down time.  Give them that gift.

We may think of 2020 as the year of Covid but it is also the year of reimagining and of resilience.

Go build a terrarium, hike that new trail, plan a weekend with your bicycle, go glamping.  Have fun!  Adults need to have fun too.

I suspect that living life outside of the retail store actually might lead to lower levels of anxiety and higher levels of satisfaction.  Give it a try, see how it works for you and if you need help, well you can always call a therapist, I know a good one.

Written by Kimberley Gunning